John Brennan (CIA) & James Comey (FBI) Stepehen Preston (DOD) James Clapper (NSA) - Request for New Handler

Elizabeth Loftus I just remembered the name of the GOP congressional "coke" distributer from the Iran Contra days (I don't have a handler to tell it to….I'll communicate it to some so nobody hurts me. ~ I HATE LIVING IN FEAR~    !!!  They called him a distributer cause people did  NOT pay for the cocaine the CIA gave it away for free.  How bizarre it that memory. I do not think the Bush family is evil I think the CIA is. I'm tired and need the people from the Reagan era CIA to stop the monitoring of me.   I'm scared. A wife of an Air America pilot gave me a tape of me saying the "pledge" when Bush "H" led it. I was told "someone wanted to see me do it"… I want to know WHO?  then I have my last voicemails from Mark Silverman I'm alleging he's my "ex" Shadow CIA handler…Nothing else makes sense. I'm so upset.

Listen to the message that says WHITE HOUSE?

  I don't think the President of Mrs. Reagan knew what was going on… I was later told that Nancy was very upset by drug use….then I was invited to the Just Say No luncheon in New Orleans that the 1st lady hosted. I got to meet Barbara Bush there.. just briefly.   she had to use the bathroom and I waited with her while it was being scanned by the secret service.  She used public restrooms at the Superdome….

John Brennan (CIA) & James Comey (FBI) Stepehen Preston (DOD) James Clapper (NSA) - 

Sirs, I’ve had 4 Handlers in my life & my most recent break up is the toughest. I  been told that Mark Silverman was my "Shadow" Handler. 

FYI- Last year I asked Mark Silverman "if" I was getting a new  CIA handler.. He said No your life will just be handled. 

Sirs I googled and BOTH have the SAME definition.  Look I wrote that conversation with Silverman LAST year… 

http://senatordiannefeinstein.blogspot.com/2013/02/so-i-asked-silverman-what-happens-to-me.html

Anyway I want a new one, maybe one who takes me for manicures like the one I had after the Lockerbie Bombing?   I'd prefer a happily married woman handler that could just be a friend.  Also the guy the Saudis recruited was a Quail Hunter and a little too intense- Giving the Saudi linked CIA (Shadow or Regular) credit the guy was American born. Ya'll should know I've never been with a foreign national.  THAT is something I was told NEVER to do - Although I've read some things in the news and maybe it's OK now? Anyway I have a lot of questions but need a handler to ask them… since it seems that NOBODY wants to talk to me directly. Why?  Oh I know why-ya'll don't want to hear what I have to say. 

I was told that I "you know too much intel to get a CIA job"   … so I'm trying to get a job with other agencies.  I know I was part of the SHADOW CIA/FBI but I want government retirement & learned that due to my overseas trips I'm entitled.  Did you guys know I'm I the ONLY person to "not have" profited from the Lockerbie Cover-Up?  Maybe I should get Real Estate tips from Frank Duggan?  Someone said something about people getting "good deals" on investment opportunities-maybe I'm wrong about Frank Duggan?  Also I was told that others that were part of the cover up got to be consultants- Hey maybe Mr. Clapper can "get me in" to Booz Hamilton?  I'll send them a fax. I'd prefer to live in Washington DC or Chicago. I'll contact David Axelrod's think tank too.   Any other suggestions? 

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  Chicago, IL 60606 USA
  
  Phone: 312/419-8100
  Fax: 312/578-4667

Also - I applied for a job as an IGO investigator for the Dept. of Commerce.  I think my resume might "freak out" HR… Can ya'll put in a good word for me.  Just think if I get the job I can investigate companies that do deals with IRAN. I'm sure members of congress will know that I'll be tough on companies that commit fraud & economically support America's enemies.  

Grieving a break-up

Denial

The person left behind is unable to admit that the relationship is really over. They may continue to call the former partner even though that person wants to be left alone. Instead they may deny their feelings and not admit that they are upset about it at all.

Anger

The partner left behind may feel angry for the pain the leaving partner causes them. The partner left also might blame himself/herself.

Bargaining

After the anger stage, the one left behind may plead with their former partner by promising that whatever caused the breakup will never happen again. Example: “I can change. Please give me a chance."

Depression

Next the person might feel discouraged that his or her bargaining plea did not convince the former partner to stay. This may send the person into depression causing disruption to life functions such as sleeping, eating and even daily bowel movements.

Acceptance

Moving on from the situation and the person is the last stage. The partner left behind accepts that the relationship is over and begins to move forward with his or her life. She or he may not be completely over the situation but is weary of going back and forth, so much so that they can accept the separation as reality.[5]